This Has Been A Challenging Year


I know it’s been over six months since I wrote on this blog, but it’s been a challenging year. Honestly, this year has sucked ass.


2021 for us has been full of loss, struggles, anxiety, instability, blah, blah, blah.

BUT on the positive side, it’s been filled with extreme growth, self-discovery, and starting a new book series (The Last O’Clery Witch), but more on that in a minute.

I haven’t felt like writing or doing anything creative because of the hurdles and setbacks we’ve been going through. Hopefully, they’re over with now.

I do believe in the power of manifestation, and we get what we focus on the most.

If you’re mostly focusing on negative shit, then you’ll bring it into your experience, so I’ve been focusing on what I want instead of what I don’t want.

The trick though is to learn how to monitor your thoughts because the mind loves to tell stories.

It loves drama.

It loves to make up shit to worry about.

Meditation is the best way to learn how to take control of your thoughts. I’m not a pro at it yet, but I plan to be.

There are things in our life that we don’t have control over like just recently our 14-year-old cat fur friend (Church) died, and we had to watch the whole thing because the vets wouldn’t see him because of Covid.

They wouldn’t answer their phone.

They wouldn’t answer their doors.

And they weren’t taking new patients.

It was fucking heartbreaking! 😭

We didn’t realize how much our decisions in life included Church until he left us.

We miss him so much.

The morning we drove up the forested mountain to bury him among the redwood trees was unbelievably magickal. ✨

I took this picture on the way up the mountain. The photo doesn’t do it justice, but the ray of sunshine was like letting us know that Church made it across the rainbow bridge.

He’s no longer in pain.

He’s no longer sick.

He’s happy now.

He’s having fun.

He wanted us to know that.

Also, the magnificent redwood tree we buried him under will look out for him and is honored to do so.

Putting Church to rest was an amazing experience that we’ll never forget.

It was as if we stepped into a different realm and were given a glimpse into it.

So yeah, there are things in life we don’t have control over. I didn’t manifest Church’s demise or my father-in-law’s death, or my friend’s death, or my ex-coworker/physician’s suicide, or my dad’s mini-stroke he just had last week.

Told ya it’s been a rough year, and that’s not all of it . . .

. . . But we won’t go into that.

I don’t like to get negative. I just wanted to give you a general idea of what’s been going on in my world this year.

Btw, we’re still on the southern coast of Oregon, and we love it here!

We have no regrets about moving here, even with all the hardships and coming close to living out of our car. 

But when it comes to being true to yourself and dreams, ya gotta be all in and trust the process . . .

On the book front, Legends of Deceit #2 has been written for a couple of years now and still needs to be professionally edited and gone through the whole publishing process, which costs a lot of money.

I haven’t had the resources to do that, but I believe in the future I will.


I don’t know.

If you want to help out you can buy one of my books and tell your friends about them.


Beyond the Eyes
is going to make a great TV series and fans of those books and their companions (Tangled Roots and Ameerah) have told me that as well. They also mentioned it being a movie. 😁

The Last O’Clery Witch.

I’m working on getting an agent for The Last O’Clery Witch (book #1 in my Grimbrook series), but it takes time, and honestly, with all the upheavals in my life, I haven’t put much energy into querying agents as I should. Once we’re stable, I’ll get back at it. For sure. 

I do want to create a bitchin’ website for my books, photos, and videos. That is a future goal of mine.

Well, my friends, there you have it. 

We’re almost through 2021. 

I do believe I’m a winner, and I can be, do, and have whatever I want. 

I’m not giving up. 

I will continue to be true to myself.

Cheers! 🥂



I'm Alive


Hello. Hello.

I know. I know. 🙄

It’s been a long-ass time.

I still love you, though. 🤗

There’s so much to tell you . . .

I’ll do my best to make it short.

Oh, but before I begin, if you’re a subscriber to my newsletter, then you already know how I’ve been.

If you’re not a subscriber, then what are you waiting for?

Here’s the link to subscribe.

Don’t worry.

I’m not a twat.

I won’t spam you.


So, we’re still living on the Southern Coast of Oregon and fucking love it here. 🥰

I can’t believe we live here.

We explore and go on adventures all of the time. 🧭

I have so many amazing pictures, you guys.

If you want me to share some of them with you, I will.

I got rid of our Exploring Rabbit Holes website, which was a huge bummer, but the cost to run it was too much, and since we stopped doing van life, there was no need to have it up.

What I need and plan to do is build an author website for my books.

That’s one of my goals this year.

I just can’t decide how I want it to look. 🤔

It’ll come to me one of these days.

During Covid, which we’re still in (when will it end?), I started a new paranormal book series, but if you read my last post, you already know that.

The first book (The Last O’Clery Witch) is done.

It’s the longest book I’ve ever written. 

The word count was 115,899! 😬

I’m starting on the third rewrites this weekend and already have the word count reduced to under 100,000 words. 

Yay! 😁

I have a secret reader who read the rough draft and loves the story, which is cool. 

The Last O’Clery Witch is a fun story, and I’m not saying that because I wrote it. 

It is fun to read. 

It is. 

I plan on getting an agent for this book because I want the experience. 

The second book to Legends of Deceit is written and needs to go to my wonderful editor, but right now I don’t have the resources to publish it, so we wait until everything falls into place.

It seems like that’s all I’ve been doing is waiting.

It’s really getting old.

Oh, another thing that has happened since I last posted here is my father-in-law crossed over in January. 😢

He got Covid, then pneumonia, and now he’s not here.

His passing was tougher than I thought it would be.

This month, I lost a really good friend to cancer.

She went quick – too quick.

I miss her a lot. 😔

So far, 2021 has been filled with loss, more self-discovery, new adventures, beauty, love, happiness, wonder, sadness, dark thoughts, positive thoughts, crazy-cool manifestations, creativity, growth, learning to be patient with the way things are, and trusting that our wellbeing is taken care of.  

We’ll see how the rest of this year goes, but I am in the clarity business . . .

What I do is, I get really clear and really happy, and good things come to me. 😉

Have a wonderful and magickal ✨weekend and week, my friends.


Cheers! 🥂


New Book and Life Update


It’s been a few months since I last posted in here, and I wanted to give you a quick update on what’s been going on.

Right now, we’re dealing with the horrible wildfires.

We now live on the southern coast in Oregon, which Omigod I fucking love it here, but the fires are bad, you guys.

Yesterday morning I woke up in a dark bedroom and house. My first thought was a cloudy and rainy day.


I looked out the window and saw the orange sky and ash falling from it.

Today we were told to stay indoors because the air quality sucks, well we didn’t listen and took a walk anyway.

Bad idea.

We turned around and went back home.

My chest now feels heavy as if I smoked a pack of cigarettes in one night. It also hurts and so does my head. 😬

So, yeah, we learned our lesson.

Hey, I’m an INFJ, and I don’t like to be told what to do. 🤷‍♀️

Anyway, that’s what’s currently going on besides dealing with Covid-19, which should be over soon.

I do have some book news, and I’ll have more later. 😉

I have a title and a name for this new paranormal series I'm writing . . .

The book title is: The Last O’Clery Witch

The book series’ name is:
The Grimbrook Series

As I’m writing this rough draft, I’m learning things that I’ve always wanted to learn because my main character (Ainsley) who is a witch is into those things, like crystals, making tinctures, herbal remedies, tarot card readings, etc.

I’ve always been into that stuff and used to do tarot card readings . . . 

. . . But then I stopped.

I lost those parts of myself I loved because I had decided to assimilate to society’s standards instead. 🙄

Don’t do that, you guys.

Be your 100% self.

You do you.

I can get into the whole story of how I dismantled my life (I started it in August of 2017), threw out the old script that was spoon-fed to me since birth, and started writing my own. 

I’m now the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life . . .

. . . But this post would be way too long for that.

So, through research and during my own time, I’ve been learning more about crystals, zodiac signs, astrology, etc.

It’s really cool stuff.

I'm loving it.

I made this star and added a hag stone (we trimmed the ends after I took this photo) to it.

The materials are all-natural (the sticks were from the forest in the mountains, the string is hemp, and the hag stone I found on the beach).

For years, we’ve hung a star like this above our front door.

It wards off negative and evil people.

It totally works, at least, for us it has.

The hag stone is for an extra punch of power.

I made another protection star I’m going to use as a prize in a giveaway. 😊

Btw, Ainsley makes them as well.

So, I might be doing some witchy-cool post here that relates to this story I’m writing. I know my newsletter subscribers want me to in my newsletters, which btw, I’ll be sending one out on the 16th

Have a great weekend!

Cheers! 🥂


Book Announcement

Yes, I know it’s been a couple of months since I posted in here, but a lot has been going on.

Like the rest of you guys, we’ve been “sheltering in” during those months, however, we did go on little adventures away from people.


We ran into Moss Man while we were out exploring the forest. 😬

In February we decided to stay in Oregon after trying out van life, and as you can see from the pictures, we love it here. 🥰

I plan to be where we’re at for the rest of my life.

We’re still in limbo, though . . .

. . . But that’s okay. It’s not forever.

I did lose my creative spark during that time, which concerned me. A lot.

I tried all of my tricks to overcome my lack of creativity.

Nothing worked!

I read through my entire Beyond the Eyes trilogy and its companion books (Tangled Roots and Ameerah).

I took notes with the idea of turning the trilogy into a series.

After I was done, there was no spark or excitement.


I thought I was doomed.

I decided to write about how I felt and asked myself questions.

It did help, but the creative drive wasn’t all there.

So, I did something that some of you might think is nuts (witchy woo-woo).

I smudged our house with white sage and it worked! 🤗

No kidding!

It totally did.

I’m seriously thinking about writing a blog post about sage-smudging your house. 🤔

Anyway, my book announcement is this . . .

. . . I’m starting a new book series😁

It’ll be in the paranormal genre.

The story will have witches, werewolves, and other paranormal creatures in it.

The first book in the series might take me a while to write because I have other projects I’m working on as well. One of them will align with this story, so if everything flows with it, I’ll tell you more about the project after it kicks off. 😉

The first chapter is written btw, but there is a bit of research to do, and I’m working on planning out the series, which takes time, but it’s fun.

The main character (Ainsley) who is an immortal witch is already surprising me.

I remember when I was writing Ameerah’s character, I had no idea she was a lesbian until she told me she was.

I know that sounds nutty, but the characters talk to the author.

I do need a name for the first book and series.

I suck at coming up with titles. 

But it’ll come to me.

I will be doing some giveaways in the future, but if you want to get in on some exclusive, top-secret information and prizes, you can sign up for my newsletter here:

Have a great week!

Cheers! 🥂


We Sold The Van

We sold the van last Friday.

It was a bittersweet day.

K wasn’t into van life at all and wanted to sell the van. 

I didn’t want to, but I also wasn’t going to drive it because I didn’t feel comfortable behind the wheel. 😬

Once we both agreed to put it up for sale, we imagined who we’d want to buy it.

He or she would love the van and appreciate the build. 

We visualized a hippie/boho type of person who wouldn’t have the funds to build a campervan on her/his own.

At first, we priced it at a fair rate and got a lot of interest in it, but then the coronavirus happened. ☹️

We still got calls, but nothing stuck.

We told ourselves the right person would come along and buy it.

We needed to trust in the process, just like we did when we thought our house wouldn’t sell in the middle of winter in North Dakota. 

We decided to lower the price, knowing the next owner couldn’t afford what we currently had it at.

We took off $3,000.00.

Selling the van wasn’t about profit, it was about enriching someone else’s life, someone who would enjoy the van and take good care of it.

Not too long after that, we sold it to the cutest couple ever. 🥰

They were exactly how we envisioned the new owners to be – part of our tribe.

Everything flowed perfectly, and we enjoyed their company.

I told K that I’d probably get a campervan in the future - one that I could drive.

I love them.

I always have.

So where does that leave our Dare to Live YouTube channel? 

To be honest, K lost interest in making videos. 

Me, on the other hand, might continue with the channel on my own. 

We live in a place where we’ll never run out of adventures. 

I had asked our Dare to Live followers what I should do and they said to keep the channel and the Facebook Dare to Live Channel page. If anything, I could continue to post on there.

It's still kind of hard to believe we sold the van. 

We had put so much of ourselves into it. 

Pictures of my book covers are on the high-roof.

What a trip.

I hope the new owners are having fun and enjoying their new house on wheels.

I'm glad they have it. 

I also hope the van will be good to them like it was to us.

Everything happens for a reason.

There are no regrets.

We are where we are now because we decided to dismantle our lives, step out of our comfort zone and build the life we want.

The van was part of that journey and I’ll forever be grateful for it. 😊

Van Life Brought A Wonderful Surprise

Those of you who have been following me here and maybe, hopefully, on our Exploring Rabbit Holes website, know that in August of 2017, we decided to completely dismantle our lives and be true to who we really are. 

Who were you before society told you who you should be?

Have you ever thought about that?

I did that night and then made a life-changing decision.

Thankfully, my bestie felt the same way and was onboard.

You can follow our journey on our Dare to Live YouTube channel.

In January of 2020, we sold our house and moved into our homemade camper van in the middle of winter in the Dakotas. 🥶

We took off and got as far away from the bitter cold and snow as fast as we could.

The first day went well, but after that things got rough. 😬

I already wrote a post about it on our website.

Honestly, I think we have a cool van and I slept really well in it.

Our cat Church even likes it and claimed it as his van.

However, I felt unproductive while we traveled and our WiFi was sketchy. 

I need to be productive and have reliable WiFi to do my work.

Other issues we had was where to park for a few days, not having enough water or room for our needs, and Kevin hated driving the van.

Van life wasn’t his thing . . .

. . . But we kept going with full intentions to travel parts of the US and videotape our journey for our YouTube channel.

When we reached the Pacific Coast, we got a wonderful surprise. 😊

By complete accident, we came across a small coastal town and ended up camping 100 yards from the beach for eight days.

It was wonderful. 🥰

We explored part of the area and loved it.

Kevin and I looked at each other and said, “I can totally live here.”

So, we decided to see if we could find a place to rent for at least a year to see if this was where we wanted to be for the rest of our lives.

According to the residents here, it’s hard to find a place to rent.

The way we live our life is if we’re on the right path things will flow. If not, they won’t and we continue to move on.

We found two places to rent within 24 hours. 😁

No shit.

Everything flowed flawlessly.

We picked a place that’s half a mile from the ocean (you can see the ocean from our street), the Rogue River, and we’re surrounded by forested mountains. 😍

Oh, and for an added bonus there’s a 2-story bookstore with a kickass coffee shop a block from where we live.

The coldest it gets here is 40 degrees and the hottest is 75.

We totally scored.

This place is fucking amazing!

We’re within walking distance to just about everything.

And the food here is awesome. 

We can’t believe we found this place.

It’s perfect for our wandering and creative spirits.

We plan to explore the Pacific Coast and already started.

Here we can live instead of just exist.

If we never would have tried van life and being nomads, we’d never be where we are now.

Van life brought a wonderful surprise.

Back in August 2017, we decided to change our lives, despite the disapproval of others.

We made a plan, became minimalist and stepped out of our comfort zone.

We not only dramatically made outward changes, but we also worked on our inner self through meditation, reading, studying, lectures, writing, and being each other’s support system.

And we’re not done. 😜

We’ll never be done.

None of us will.

We’re all in the process of becoming.

But I’ll tell ya what . . .

. . . Kevin and I have grown so much since we decided to allow our true selves to take the helm instead of allowing society, culture-conditioning and the ego-mind continue to lead us on a path that was littered with anxiety, frustration, monotony, enslavement, and overall, a false life.

Now we’re working on getting settled into our new life here in a small coastal town.

Once we’re settled, I’m going to get back to doing what I love – write books and other writing projects as well. 😉

I do have the second book to my Legends of Deceit series written; it just needs to go to my editor and through the publishing process.

I’ll keep you up to date on that and other things as well.

Stay tuned!